Just learned from Tim’s blog that Michael Jackson might have had struggled with a condition called Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Wikipedia explains it as “a psychological disorder in which the affected person is excessively concerned and preoccupied by an perceived defect in his or her physical features“, which may lead to obsessive compulsive behaviors including plastic surgery or dermatology procedures, and also psychological distress such as severe depression, anxiety, and social isolation.
This reminds me of the following quote from Henri Nouwen about self-rejection:
Over the years, I have come to realize that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity, or power, but self-rejection. Success, popularity, and power can, indeed, present a great temptation, but their seductive quality often comes from the way they are part of the much larger temptation to self-rejection. When we have come to believe in the voices that call us worthless and unlovable, then success, popularity, and power are easily perceived as attractive solutions. The real trap, however, is self-rejection……
Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the “Beloved.” Being the Beloved expresses the core truth of our existence.
Henri Nouwen, Life of the Beloved, (New York : Crossroad, 1992), 31-33.
Michael, may you know that God loves you just as you are. Rest in peace.